one up..one down.

the past few days,

have been an emotional rollercoaster. 

and usually when people say that,

they mean it in a bad way.

but it hasn't been all day.

one up..one down.

the up..

i assisted in the creation of a cheese man.

a replica of our friend adam,

the guy in the back. :)

identical twins, right.? 

it was fun.

we laughed insanely,

went crazy with cheese,

learned smart things,

and created a party,

with just four people.

IT WAS A BLAST.

no doubt.

the down..

yesterday, was filled with tears.

ridiculous ones at that.

i was suppose to visit Grand Canyon University,

for a tour and information.

my original plan failed,

then the five after that did as well.

my entire life i've never been serious about school.

or about my future.

i started caring just a little too late.

but now i want to do something.

and be something.

but because of my past,

no one seems to take me seriously.

and i feel kinda helpless.

but if it wasn't for God,

i'd feel entirely lost.

so i'll eventually get there,

and i'll be okay.

because God has huge

plans for me.

and i just got to let Him take control.