SO MUCH.

i don't even know where to begin...

there's so much going on.

but it's all just fading together.

i can't even comprehend it all.

but that's not unusual..

i have a hard time comprehending almost anything.

i swear i have a learning disability.

no joke.

there's complaint number one.

complaint number two:

guys are tools.

i'm sick of it.

they come into your life.

and they just leave.

screw you over.

well,

that's what i get for careing too much.

falling too quickly.

actually taking time to invest my life into them.

getting nothing back.

that's cool.

be a tool.

no, you're not just a tool.

you're the entire tool box.

ooooh, i wanna name call so bad.

but i feel like that'd break some sort of law....?

whatever.

doesn't even matter.

you know who you are.

"that awkward moment where someone thinks everything is about them..oh..i guess something is now.." 

complaint number three:

soo guy number one fails..

so you have guy number two.

you know two things.

1.you're happy when you're talking to him

2.you're not happy when you're not talking to him

it's simply as simple as that.

WHY CAN'T IT JUST STAY THAT SIMPLE.

feelings shouldn't exsist.

okay, that's a lie.

but that's how i feel at times like these.

cause then it gets beyond the point of happiness,

and reaches to the point of possible need..

and then you don't get what you 'need'..

ahhhhh.

whatever.

life goes on.

i have MUCH more important things to worry about.

like;

complaint number four:

college.

no, not college..

the road to college.

omgomgomg.

everything you've heard about senior year?

disregard it all.

right now.

because it's not fun.

it's not easy.

and it's not laid back.

okayokayokay.

so i guess it depends what you wanna do aaaafter you graduate..

i wanna go to college.

GCU as a matter of fact.

why does college have to cost SO DARN MUCH?

like really?
come on.

college is barely worth it these days.

and you're gonna take my families life savings?

rude.

hahaha.

yeahh, my family ain't givin me crap.

so i guess what "life savings" we have is safe.

and i'm NO where near smart enough to get merit-based scholarships.

so i get to sit in front of my computer..

for ten hours a day..

looking up and filling out scholarships and contests..

probably just wasteing my time.

with the thought running through my mind.. 

"HOW THE FREAKING CRAP AM I GOING TO PAY FOR COLLEGE?!?!"

people,

mainly..well no, only..from church keep telling me not to worry about the money.

and don't let it hinder me from the education i want..

"God will provide the money.."

okay,

fine.

i believe it.

i do..

but i can't help but to worry.

it's a big deal.

you can't deny it.

complaint number five:

so.much.drama.

i'm sick of highschool.

i wanna run away from EVERYBODY. 

and never have to deal with ANYBODY.

ever.

again.

but that ain't happen'in.

so i gotta deal.

with petty drama.

and petty people.

that can't grow up.

and can't get over the past.

and it makes my life hellish.

yayayayayayayayyyyyy.

slashnot.

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